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See what! All I'm doing is telling the truth.

And you don't think that that's what educating means?

No. I don't know! I don't know how I can be EDUCATING when I don't even feel like I know any bloody thing, most of the time.

[...could've tricked him, Kitty.]

Oh I don't know about that. You JUST told me that what you were saying was the truth and you seem pretty confident about that like ninety percent of the time. You don't have to know everything to educate someone

I mean I'm pretty sure a lot of my teachers have known zip but they still gave me a decent education about some things

Well, OK, I know how bloody awful it is to grow up poor and spat-on, I got a GOOD education in that. So yeah I know THAT part is the truth. With GREAT confidence. But the rest of everything, I'm just trying to feel my way towards something that might be right. And trying to feel my way there when I'm more in the dark than most of the people I'm 'educating.' I mean, I don't think there are many people who take a look at me and think, oh, yeah, right there, that's a girl who knows what she's on about. I think most of them just see some guttersnipe, don't they. YOU come across as respectable, YOU can get away with that sort of thing.

Edited 2015-07-17 05:27 (UTC)

Wait you think they'd listen to ME instead? I can't make half the speeches you can Kitty.

Look [...and he can't believe he's saying this.] I think you're underestimating how much someone who really cares about what they're talking about can convince people. You don't need to know everything to get other people to really listen and respect you. Who here's called you a guttersnipe anyway?

[ She chews her lip. And, after a moment, she admits: ]

No one. It just feels like they're thinking it.

[ Which...Writing that out makes her wonder if she's not just projecting. Because she really hasn't been treated badly - not for her background, anyway. And her assumption's always been that it's because she's always been decently good at acting like she's from some better background than she actually is, but what if it's really just because it doesn't matter? What if it really doesn't matter that she's unschooled? Would they just listen to her anyway if her ideas were good?

She doesn't know. Which frustrates her. Because Jaime seems so certain, and she feels so doubtful. And she hasn't got any reason to doubt. Which means she probably hasn't shaken off as much of her society's brainwashing as she thought she had. Still a commoner on the inside. ]

You're underestimating yourself, too, you know. People would listen to you. They already do, honestly. Your friends are RIDICULOUSLY loyal.

Oh my friends sure. They're great. And honestly it's okay if your friends don't agree with you but if they don't at least LISTEN then you need new friends.

Anyway I never would have thought you were second guessing yourself like this so I think you're doing pretty good as it is. There are always going to be jerks who try and make up reasons not to listen to you but I think they'd do that no matter what. Have a little more faith in yourself but have a little more faith in people too ok? Even if it seems like they're not listening it might get through to their skulls

Yeah. UGH, I'm sorry, this is so embarrassing! PLEASE don't think that I'm here weeping and paralyzed by my own self-doubts. Or that I need cheering up or anything like that. I'm usually the one giving pep talks, not getting them. Things have just been rotten lately. I'm going to get back on my feet, and when I do, YOU'RE going to get prodded on by ME, I swear it. I'm going to find something you feel down about and cheer at you until you perk up. It'll be a VERY fine vengeance.

I promise I don't think you're weeping and paralyzed. But you're allowed to have a bad day too you know that right? That's when you text people so they can do the whole pep talk thing. Or go on a cross country trip. Or both! I promise I won't tell anyone

But you're out of luck cuz you FINALLY guessed my secret superpower. I don't get sad. It's very creepy.

Facial hair has just been outlawed.

Then that just makes me mad. Sign me up to take down the totalitarian state now

I'm sure you'll be a fine warrior. Especially since I also just read in the newspaper that their next step will be banning unflattering button-down shirts that don't fit right and make you look like a 30-year-old.

HEY! My shirts fit fine!

I'm gonna say something really mean about your clothes now just you watch

[...just keep on waiting for that returning text, Kitty, while Jaime desperately tries to think of what Kitty actually wears.]

Yeah, good LUCK. I've got an eye for style, thanks.

[ Not...so...much. When she's wearing what she thinks is stylish, it's generally black-on-black. Often with bellbottoms. Most of the time here, she dresses like a greaser girl, leather jacket and culottes. Or sometimes in poodle skirts, when she's trying to fit in with the nicer sorts of locals. Basically, she looks like someone trying hard to look cool. ]

Plus I don't think you actually know enough about clothes to come up with something scathing.

I am the fashion king. I know enough to know that

[He knows nothing about fashion. That's all excellent fodder, but he can't remember what Kitty's style is.]

Your shoes. They're bad

Oh my God, you're trying. OK, go on, what's bad about a pair of white trainers.

[Is THAT what she wears? Okay, he can work with that.]

Well I mean they're white. That's a bad choice right off the bat cuz they're just going to get dirty and then you've wasted a ton of money on ruined shoes

Oh this is brilliant. It's like watching a little baby that doesn't quite know how to move its arms yet. OK, what's wrong with my leather jacket.

You are SO RUDE I'm going to have to tell everyone how mean you are

Also it's too big

[no it's not yes it is HE DOESN'T KNOW WHAT DOES HER LEATHER JACKET LOOK LIKE]

How mean I am! Are you also going to pass on news of your own cruelty? I don't think I'm ever going to recover from these insults. Oh, go on, what's wrong with my make-up.

You're enjoying this way too much

What are you talking about, I'm DEFINITELY crying right now.